Hello!
I thought i'll be using lappy,read my library books and study abit today.Just like any other saturday,but i just received a message from TAN YIYING.
So i've decided to blog about her...again.
Bestfriend asked me 'why involve in this type of things'. Ya,he's damn right,i should just use my time usefully eg: studying >.< After this post,i wont be responding to any of this thingy ANYMORE!
Her message says this : "I didnt knew that it was such an embarrasement to go out with me. I didnt knew that all you did were lying to me. I didnt knew that you were just faking to be friends with me." (26-07-2008,13:21)
Oh well,and i'm here to answer her.
Firstly,i admit i did blog about hanging out with her was a embarrasing thing and entertaining her and stuff.,it was written here http://j-ellydonuts.blogspot.com/2008/07/to-z.html & http://j-ellydonuts.blogspot.com/2008/07/its-you.html.Go check it out if you want my dear readers (:
Secondly,i wrote that because i'm angry that day when i post that.When one is angry,they cant think properly,all they know is to vent there anger out here.After venting out their anger,they'll feel much better. Thats what you did at your pivate blog last time too.
Thirdly,I did not lied to you young lady.At first,i really treat you like a good friend.I had never lied to you.Its only after this monday you sent me the message asking me to accompany you into the school,i then start to feel irritated,but i still didnt lied to you before.
Fourthly,I did not be friend with you for FAKE! Is like who got so boliao go be fake friend with you. In my life friend are just friends,enemies are just enemies and strangers are just strangers.
If i befriend with you for fake,i wont be there to cheer you up when you're down,i wont share my problems with you,i wont bother sitting with you during some lessons,i wont bother to asked you out to our outings,i wont bother to take photos with you,i wont bother asking you to come my house for study date,i wont asked you to help me out with my blogskin,i wont asked you to play viwawa with me,i wont chat with you on the phone,i wont tell gary about your problem and asked him to help you,i wont accompany you to wait for the bus at night,i wont walked to the toilet with you.....in fact if i be your friend for fake,i wont even bother to look at you man.
If i want to be fake friend with someone,why must i find you? Why dont i go find some rich kids and go por them,like that i can get lots of expensive things i want. Somemore prelims and N coming,why should i waste my time fake one good friend with you.
I really did treat you as a friend sincerely in the past but now i dont know,maybe not i think.
Fifthly,I dont mean to like shoot you over here but i post those posts was because maybe after reading this,you can find out whats wrong with you and maybe change you attitude and stuff. You wrote we three a letter yesterday stating that you've deleted your blogs,not intending to blog anymore.In fact you'll just keep a personal diary. Now the problem is not about you blogging or not,its about stalking.Anyway do you know that the message you sent me is today,but the stuff inside the message were written days ago one?
Sixthly,in your letter you stated something like you're back to being a loner right.We didnt say we hate you until we want break friendship with you.We're only giving you time to reflect on what you've did in the past.See..by that sentence,you're already adding words into our mouths.Then next what,go around telling people that we break friendship with you,make people pity you and befriend with you huh.
Lastly,do you know what we're thinking,how do we feel right now? Whenever we see you being 'disiao' by others in school,we felt angry. We felt like going up and ask them to keep their mouth shut.Even we're irrtated by you,i (*i dont know what others are thinking) cant bear to see those scenes,do you know that.I sometimes really feel like going up and be your friend again,lend you my shoulders to cry on etc. When weekit they all said 'hello/byebye yiying' ,i think they're so bad,like so disiao like that.I even asked junheng whether he can ask them to stop doing that.
If i be fake friend with you long ago,you think i'll care about you? I rather spend my time hanging out with my other real friends and joke with them happily. Times and times again,everyday without fail,i've been thinking whether to forgive you.If you dont believe me,you can go around asking tingrui,hweechoo they all,i've discussed this issue with them before.
However,after that message i received from you.I dont think i can accept you back as my friend.
Maybe in future when you've changed for a better,i will be your friend again but not right now.
If you ever read this post,please go and think about it.
& Please get this into your head : I have never lied,be fake friends with you before.
Thats all,bye!