Hey folks,
Just finished changing my blogskin (:
& i'm here to post.
You must be thinking why is that title right.Cause the radio played that song when i'm blogging and i find that song quite funny yet interesting.haha.
Ohgay,i had a bad dream last night,its a super scary one even though got *ahem* in the dream.
The dream was about this person(someone i know) was crazy and was looking all over for me in school,in the dream i had to hide in the classroom and i had to keep real quiet especially when tt person came into the classroom.The person also swing me for like ten plus over rounds,got 3 person walked past and they ignored me when i called for help ): When reaching the ending of the dream,i suddenly appeared at *ahem*'s house outside,preparing to go for a date -.-"
Weird dream yea,i guess i've been too much about that person's incident.Stop thinking le shuxian!
Woke up at 11am today,bathed&changed then dad drove me to TanTockSeng.Sians,dad never booked appointment so cannot see doctor.So my next appointment is on sixteen september /:
At 4plus pm,went amkhub with mom.Watched 'money not enough 2',I know i very lag.hahas~
The movie was so-so only nahs,only the grandma part very sad,i cried x:
2 Sep 08',Tuesday:
The start of N level.
Had chinese first,i think its quite easy.After the papers,went kovan mac for lunch with shar,tr,ky and zj.Went home after that,chiong my social studies.
3 Sep 08',Wednesday:
Had chinese listening first.
Lols la,the entry proof print say chinese listening starts at 8am.End up when we're in the classroom,the teacher tell us that actually it starts at 8.30am. We all down there stoned for like forty plus minutes.Somemore they played those classical music or what la,make me feel like sleeping.
After listening,may and i accompanied shi ting home to get her entry proof.Bus-ed to hougang mall. Luckily i followed what may had said,go study bonding singapore,if not i die man.Took 1 hour plus to memorise the three headings "misperception of the different racial groups","misperception of the different religious group" and "external threats". I know i very siao la,cause i kept getting distracted by people.
Social studies paper was ok,first time in my life i know how to do ss especially the essay part.I think i can pass the essay part laas,cause they got test bonding singapore :D teehees.
Went home,and heard a bad news.
& the bad news was my dear rabbit,cookie,passed away in the morning )':
Cookie rest in peace yea,sorry for being such a bad owner.
I was not there when you died,and when you was buried.
I did not go visit you for the past few days,even though you were just at my garden,i'm busy studying&sleeping you know.
Hope your next life wont be rabbit again,go be human okays.
Cant concentrate when i'm studying for english cause its raining heavily.My mind was filled with thoughts like...
-is cookie very cold right now?
-is cookie scare?
-is cookie still hungry?
I felt like going to the place where he was buried and accompany him,but i dont know which part of the garden my mom buried him.
4 Sep 08',Thursday:
Had english paper.
Paper one i wrote as formal letter,then end up miss quek say its actually informal letter -.-"
Stupid question la.
Paper 2,almost dozed off reading it,the comprehension passage very boring sia.
Anyway i'm afraid i cant make it for english (*choy).Please god,at least let me get a P5 for english...purpleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
Lunched and slacked with shar,ky&tr at void deck for awhile then rushed home.
Changed and went ashley's house opposite wait for her.Went gym(:
After gym,we wait for that fugging rain to stop and bus-ed to compass point.Shopped around then home sweet home.
Screams:
During the past few days and weeks,i suddenly felt that i no longer believe in best friends anymore.Having best friends is so tiring,hurtful and sometimes left out.Also i even intended to end my life due to many family problems.I'm a very negative thinking person isnt it.
Everyone always blame others for something, but they didnt know that sometimes,its actually they,their ownself who made the mistake.
I'm one of them.I always blamed others for something,i can blame anyone from friends to family to maid and more but not myself.And because of this,i guess thats why i'll feel leave out.
Mom always say to me: "No one owes you a living",and i find it very true.
Even if people do owe a living,i'm definitely sure that i am not one of the person who get owes.In fact i'm the one who owe people and thats my family.
Why must i expect everyone to listening to me?
Why must i torture myself like that?
Why must i close my heart and not let anyone in?
Why must i live in sadness?
Can i be happy again......
Ciaos.