Whatever had happened at the beginning of the week,its all settled and most importantly its over.
I dont wish to bring this thing up to say anymore,it'll forever be buried deep under my garden.
Firstly,I finally accepted the fact that i'm the one in the wrong.
I wasn't brave enough to face the fact,I don't have the courage to accept the truth at first.
After this incident,i've lost some friends but i did learn a valuable lesson.
Secondly,I played with fire and got myself burnt.
I've a taste of how getting (*insert your any words you want) feels like.
I'm the one who make things worst.
Thirdly,I've upset my parents,relatives and those who really cares for me.
When i got home ytd,my dad told me that when they received the calls,they were very worried.
They actually went down to kovan to look for me,they went there not once,not twice but many times.They hope to find me there and bring me home immediately.
They even asked my cousins to sms me asking where i am,they called me a lot of times too.
On the phone with my 2 cousins last night.They told me that my parents aren't angry with me at all,they are worried,they fear that i might not be back anymore,they fear that they might lose me forever.
For the past 17 years,i've take them for granted.Whenever i quarrel with my parents,i'll blame them for everything.I'll blame them for bringing me back.I'll think that they actually love my brother more cause he's smart and more.I've never appreciate what they had done for me,I never appreciate their love.
People told them to give up on me,they told them to 'throw' me away,but they didnt.They might be very angry with me but end up they'll still forgive me.And even if they're super mad at me,mum will still leave food for me,she'll still heat it up for me.
Thinking back to secondary 1 or 2,my mum or dad used to fetch me back from school.Sometimes i let them wait for me for too long,then when i got into the car,they nag at me,i'll say back "who ask you to wait for me" and stuff like that.
I turn 17 not long ago,my parents turn 60 not long ago too,but still i'll go around doing foolish things to upset them.
Its not too late to treat them better,its still not to late to start loving them with my true heart.
Dad and Mom,i'm truly sorry for what i've done to you all.
Fourthly,its time i should really change my attitude,my character,the way i treat people and stuff.I should stop getting jealous so easily and start appreciating of what i have.
Guess,its also time i should stop jumping from clique to clique.I should just stick with that 1 or 2 clique.As what one of my cousin had told me,having lots of friends,having lots of cliques doesn't makes you popular.When in times of need,those friends that stood up for you,those that stick by you,those that accept you of what you're then can be counted as true friends.
Fifthly,5 years of friend with jeeling and yifang,i've backstab them again and again.They also forgive me time and time again.Seriously,i don't know what i can say to them.They're really very disappointed in me,and i knew it.They might even want to give up this friendship.
I've been asking myself, "what should i do to gain your trust for me back"? "What should i do to mend this friendship"?
You two are great best friends whom i don't know how to cherish in the past.
Maybe whatever i've said over here or whatever i've said over sms/msn/ face-to-face,you guys might not believe me now.But i'm really serious about changing this time round.
I really hope you guys can accept my apologies of all the bad things i've done to you all.
Sixth,may and shiting,i know you guys decided to go separate ways with me but still i would want to apologise for everything i've done to you too.Hope you two friendship can last long forever.
Seventh,charlene,i'm sorry for what i've done.& i really thanks you for accepting me back as your friend. You may not trust me straight away,but i'll let time proves everything.You're really a good friend,even my friend who dont know you can see that too.
In the past,i may be blind for not seeing your goods points,but from now on i will.
8th,thank you nabilah,sharlene,tingrui,kaiyun,shona,irdianty,syafiqah and many more. (*sorry if i left out your names,but i know what you guys have done for me.)
Thanks for being there,thanks for giving me all your supports (:
9th,my form teacher,Mr Tan will know about what had happened tmr.Cause when he called me this morning,my dad go tell him what had happened,so guess i can't escape from Mr Tan already.
I'll say everything truthly out to him tmr and rest assured i won't let him make big the whole things already as IT IS OVER!
10th,i didnt attend school today because i overslept.
And since i overslept,i might as well stay home and reflect on my actions.What for go school late and let myself get detension and demerits.
Thats all i've to say.
Bye